So, back then in high school. i gotta admit that i was pretty much a FAT-ASS.
didn't even care about binge eating or whatsoever...all i know is that if i manage to eat
tons of food then the answers would be BIGGER BOOBIES. yes, that's how my logic was as a teenager. turns out i accidentally found my old videos and stumbled upon a random photo of me. GOOD LORD! the first question that reach my mind IS THAT A FUCKING WHALE?! what the fuck was i thinking man?! well, i couldn't blame myself neither. I didn't even have a chance to full internet access until i was 15 and go to pinterest to see all of these great exercises and ideal weight charts. FREAKING TECHNOLOGY! my mind thinks that i could eat whatever i want without changing the shape of my body AKA GETTING FAT. but the truth is...lying beneath one of my fave songs from steel panther, FAT GIRL. even if there was no steel panther yet around 2007-2009 (I THINK?).
as soon as i grow old, i got tired of being called FAT, CHUBBY and couldn't fit my pants most of the time (no. really i am not freaking kidding.) even until today some of my family members are still labeling me as OVERWEIGHT. which i'll admit it kinda hurts because these guys have no idea what i've gone through. sometimes i eat because i felt like it's the only way to make myself happy. I never even weighted a 50KG before. see how bloated i am?! the thinnest i have been was at 55KG. Sad eh? but this is why i started to think that it gets boring keeping a flabby beer belly and being the fat chick. Yesterday is where i started my EAT LESS DIET and MORE EXERCISE routine. Now starting from today, i'll be documenting this losing weight journey (i can't stop laughing at myself whenever i talk about fitness because i failed epically back in 2014 to try and lose weight.) Lets just hope, this will work out. Plus, i'm gonna call this THE SKINNY PROJECT.
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